May 2012
70 posts
mintblondie:
it doesn’t matter if you love him
or capital H A M
I’m not anyone’s first choice. I’m not anyone’s favorite. People may tell me I mean a lot to them and that I’m special to them but I know there’s someone they will always choose over me.
I loathe when people think that I’m shy rather than introverted. There’s...
– Comment by popculturemulcher in the article I’m Not a Miserable Bitch, I’m Just an Introvert (via colinfirth)
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"Family" Matters
For all of those claiming to be my “family”:
Stop.
Just….stop.
Stop pretending that you care.
You use me as your “charity case” -
Listening to me to make yourself feel like a better person
Because you paid attention to me.
Little old me…
Unable to fend for herself
Make her own decisions
Get her life on track.
I am not this thing
This thing that...
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Stuck...
I knew that you could be put in the “friend-zone”…
But never in the “friends-with-benefits-zone”.
I’m stuck.
I thought we could be more than this
I want you to see me as more -
More than just a hookup
More than just a rebound
More than just a mistake.
I wish I could mean more than that to you.
WhoCares.: Anxiety. →
thoughtfultaylor:
Everything is just peachy. Your mind is flowing at a normal rate, thinking about normal things. All it takes is one trigger. That one trigger sends that sense of panic throughout your entire body. Everything else is impossible to focus on. The only place your mind can wander is deeper and deeper…
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Reflecting...
I look in the mirror
And I don’t really see anything.
Sure, I see myself.
I’m there…
But not really.
I am missing something
Blank.
Empty.
I want to be full again.
Although Scorpio do not often lose their cool,...
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BLOCKED.
Every day that goes by that I am not creating
Or thinking up new ideas
Or getting inspired
Or even daydreaming
I feel myself becoming less intelligent, less original
I feel myself dying…
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Inadequacy
I am constantly living in a state of inadequacy.
In every single thing I do.
Every endeavor I attempt.
Every feeble try.
Every failed attempt at reaching out
At being noticed, cared for
At finally feeling worthy,
Maybe, finally showing the world -someone- the true me…
I get pushed away
It’s like the universe is constantly smacking me in the face
Every time I try to move...
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If I should die before I wake...
I am terrified
I fear that every time I close my eyes
I won’t wake up.
But
What worries me the most is that
no one will notice.
What happens when you microwave a bag of doritos.
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I have an obsession....
With lights.
Candles, chandeliers, lanterns, lightbulbs.
The glow that eminantes from them
A light in the darkness
A flicker of hope
The lights envelop me
Wrapping me in warmth
Banishing my fears, even if only for a moment
I don’t feel so alone…
I feel safe
I feel at home.